There's always a first time.

wah! so it's my first time blogging and i can't wait to see where this could go haha.

So anyway, it's unfortunate to know that Im dealing with one of the hardest days ever. In my very first writing.
Today..I've been thinking..

It's hard to face the reality. Especially when everyone's in it. I took it the hard way. And Im not sure if I'll be able to pull myself together again. I wanna be like the Terminator. I want to self-destruct. Or be destructed. But I was wondering whether I could stand up again and face it all. I want to be reserved this time. Will that be possible? All my life, I make other people happy. But how could I deal with myself when Im the one who needs the saving?

I know it's not good but a girl needs her own time and space sometimes. A friend sent me a message on FB asking me to smile like this--> =D For the time being, i feel like it is highly impossible. but, I know that I can go through this. It's just another phase of life. I took the wrong turn, the one that is dark,pitch black. But I hope that I can find my way home in no time. I hope.

Family has been great, but they have their own hassles to deal with,too.

Friends couldn't have been anymore helpful, but they can't do anything bout me at the moment.

Yang boleh tolong = Slims, Rico & Shaggy and those guys from Whose line. hehe

Anyways, to all who are reading this, don't worry. I just need a peace of mind, a pinch of self-assurance and a fist of self-belief. I'll be just fine.



7 comments:

Nina Alyssa said...
July 5, 2009 at 2:02 AM

i know how u feel... :(

-nina

Azhani.Azizan said...
July 5, 2009 at 2:13 AM

:( Im soo miserable inside Nina..
BTW, welcome to my blog! my very fisrt writing hahaha

elly ezani said...
July 5, 2009 at 11:20 AM

woiii.. hihihi. welcome to the world of blogging

Nina Alyssa said...
July 5, 2009 at 11:29 AM

me too moo..i try to shove the feelings away & put on a smile but deep down i feel so lost & dissapointed & angry at myself :(

yayy! i dah link u kay! :)

Azhani.Azizan said...
July 5, 2009 at 12:26 PM

Sell: thx weyh! kau laa yg bantu aku masuk dunia ini wakakaka

Ninot: hhmmm tulaa kan..xper2..for now kite keje dulu..i woke up this morning with good mood. don't let this spoil it agn hehe
yayy thx for linking me!

MeL said...
July 5, 2009 at 3:24 PM

i feel u too moo.
sometimes i xmau bgn okay. tak larat nk pk.
i rasa left out pun ada. then again, we will find our own
way. and our friends are great kan.
u've been great to me moo! loveeee! :)

Sophie said...
July 6, 2009 at 1:24 AM

Moo Moo ader blog ker? Wow! Great!!!
Moo....chill kay?!!!
Hugs & Kisses!!!