2010 is...hhmm...

Wow. It's been 5 months and 11 days since I last updated my blog. I was this close, THIS CLOSE (buat gaya cubit) to terminating my blog forever. But, there are requests by friends here and there asking me to update it. Thing is, since 5 months ago, it is almost impossible to update it due to lack of time. (Ok, maybe aku sorang je tak gheti nak bahagi masa hahaha)

Anyways, a lot of things had happened since I entered the Hons programs. I've met a lot of nice, genuine people and I also found out that LLB can bring the worst out of you. No, seriously. I'm talking about the times when friends become foes, or strangers. Like, their tigers were unleashed all of a sudden. But not good tigers. hahaha. Bak kata orang Melayu, keluar dah belang masing-masing. Lol. All in all, I've built some good memories with the peeps. And managed to re-build new ones with old friends.

Talking about LLb, oh man..mana nak start pun tak tau. It's true what they say, it's hell man. Your life revolves around stress, fighting with time, lack of sleep. You cry a lot (Ok, I admit...haha) struggling with the deadlines etc. Memang a life of a zombie I tell you. Tapi, best. Seriously. Kin, if you baca my post, jangan takut wokeh! You can do it! Tapi sumpa I bagitau you, masuk LLb xsempat nak procrastinate tau! haha.

Hmm...my hols turned out not bad at all. Im officially the maid at home..(Productive sket kehidupan) I get to spend time with my friends every week. It's all good. Kena maki dengan mak tu biasela kan? hehe. I've been exercising too! Xdela rasa guilty makan cheese cake Mama buat wahahaha..And it's World Cup season!! I'm rooting for Spain & Argentina! Woot woot!!

Btw, Can't wait for Phuket! Soo looking forward to it!! ;)

Lost in translation

"Wondering why life seems to hate me so much...It's like one big dark whirl pool in an abyss. I can't find myself. Help me." -Jasmine Zulkifli, 2007

Hidup dalam h.i.t.a.m.p.u.t.i.h

Baru 3 hari in LLB Hons Part 1 dah rasa nak mati. Thanks.

Teringat, terbaca, tersenyum...

I just dug my sister's old post and I found this. The day that I will never forget during my trip to Langkawi with my fellow Environmental Law class March 2008.

Scared, a lil bit courageous and bravery, out of my mind kinda thing. Above all, I saved a life. And I held my head up high, baby! Haha. This was our sister to sister conversation. Excuse our retardedness :P

And when the hero comes along...

*SMS, between a sister and her eldest sister*

Somewhat like this:

Along : Weh2 kau tau tak sal misi Baywatch aku??

Myself : Haha ma dah cite. Blagak kau. Terpakse aku gtau sume rakan2 yang kenal mahupun tidak. Dush. Haha.

Along : Agak takut r time tuh. Sebaik aku tak lemas sekali

Myself : Eleh klau kau lemas aku akn dtg serta-merta mmpraktikkn CPR yg bru msuk PBL. (It’s time for me to shine!) Wakakak. Aku tau kau slmtkan org, tapi tatau d exact story. Cemanenye?

Along : Haha bongok! Aku nk mulut bwg je…(mulan..hold on…<-- ignore us, we really like to bahan org. This is General Shang from Mulan btw).cmni citenye. Aku naek bot open air. Ktrg dr pulau laen mse tu, ada island hoppingla. Patu mase smpai kt tmpt kejadian (pulau beras bsh), time2 bot nk b’labuh bg ktrg turun, ktrg dgr org jerit ‘help,help’ patu aku bole lg bwat lwk. Aku imitate *'cowmenga2’, tp mase 2 xtgk pn org yg jerit 2 sbb aku m’blkgi die. Patu aku pusing ah. Die jerit agy ‘help2 my fren…D other side’ die jerit kat ade a few Indian guys kat ctu…depan die je…tp sume org wat bodo, so ktrg sume igtkan die maen2. Lgpn bf pmpuan lemas 2 ade kt sblh die je. Patu aku tgk minah 2. Die dh tkapai2 dlm air kot! *Ape lg, aku cmpk backpack aku, smpt tggl slipar,trus terjun dr bot. Patu tarik die g shore. Sebbaik tgh pkai life jacket. Mase dkt2 nk smpai shore 2 ade ah kwn laki aku tlg tarik kn. Mase tu aku letih gle n tekezut kot. Die xjauh sgt tau, tp tmpt minah tu mandi steep, sbb bot blabuh. Dats y die xsdar kot. Dhla mase aku tarik sume dok bsorak. *Sorg pn xtlg ak bongek tol. Sume ckp bf die stupid.mmg stone gile weyh! Gf die lmas, die xbuat pape pn! Xtlg jerit pn. Tp mmg ah die pn tgh selamtkan dr sndr mase 2, tmpt 2 dlm…tp mmg xgne nye laki ah. Mase aku tarik ppuan 2, die gtau 'my bf cannot pull me...' Patu aku tanak bg die lemaskan aku, aku ckp ‘dun wory , I’ve a life jacket , juz hold onto me’ pastu die pn relax..*Hebatkan?Heroic n dramatic kan? Haha. Rilek je aku. (*Excuse my sister. Otak fikirannya mmg terlalulah senget)

(Seriously?The messages sent (3times) are this loooongggg. Gile kan, ahahaha)

Myself : Waaaaahhh! Mesti diorg clash kan pastuh. Sian, dah dekat nak kawen dah (pehal cite sndr) kih3. Ecey wehhh. Kemain la kau. Bangge aku! Muahaha! Crdt aku nak habes tp. Congrats kayh! Ape je kau. Gnite!

Along : Haha tq tq.. :D K pasni sume tgk Baywatch k ahahaha. K dik. Nnt kalau aku slmtkan ikan from lemas lg, aku bgtau k haha. Tc! Nyte! Kemslm sume…

End.

P/S: Thanks ah wey for posting this up in your blog ;) Now I remember how that day turned out to be exactly :D

LLB-Lama Lama...(don't get me started :D)

Yayy, got into the LLB program.

Yayy, so not ready to go back to school after a half year mini holiday. (excluding 3months working period)

Yayy, can't wait to see all my friends!

Yayy, never ending UiTM problems!

Yayy, black & white, 7th heaven.

Yayy, exams, tests & submissions, books.

Yayy, scary lecturers.

Yayy, blue pak guards all over UiTM yang sangat rajin menjalankan kerja menyaman

YAYY DEAN!


Goodbye 8hours of sleep.

Goodbye hangouts, mamak at night.

Goodbye life.

Goodbye Facebook, Twitter, Chasing Rainbows.

Goodbye hobbies.

Goodbye Rico, Goodbye Shaggy.

Goodbye holiday.

Goodbye 2009.


Thank YOU God, for this opportunity. I accept this as my second chance to prove myself ;)

Hello, 2010. Please be nice to me. :)

Wrapping up 2009

Finally have the mood to blog hehe..So many things happened these past few months but haven't had the chance to write them all..Maklumlah saya ni pemalas nak blogging..Apa guna ade blog pun tada tau -_-" Blame Twitter & Facebook & One Tree Hill & dvds

Jadi, mari kita recap (in no particular order) dari wedding Cik, eh, PUAN Siti Ruvinna & Encik Kama on the 10th Oct, 2009 which was also Zizi dearie's birthday ;)

1. V's tying the knot

What a night! Done at her parents' house in Subang, she was gorgeous! Kami convoy ramai-ramai, around 5 cars from Shah Alam. The food's great and although malam tu panas, dan yang datang pun terlalu ramai sebab semua excited kawan dah kahwin, tapi semua maintain la kan..So now she's 2 months married. Paling penting, she got married during her LLB course. Terbaik. How does it feel to be a wifey now,V? :)

2. 16.10.2009: Telah masuk waktu berhenti kerja

Can't deny that I was so damn happy to finally have finished working at the firm, but at the same time, I felt that I have yet to learn everything from my lawyers during the 3 months course, especially conveyancing. Jadi terpaksa lah berhempas pulas sket dalam LLB nanti hehe. Nevertheless, thanks to the firm for the experience.
In the picture: Us with the office boy yg slalu tanya "boss da masuk dah?" Kalau blom, "yess" kalau dah, "Alaa boring btollaa" haha siot je. Terbaik ah Boy.

3. Graduation Day: 27th Oct


One of the happiest days of my life. D'oh..Dah kata graduation pulak hehehe...Datang bersama Leez, kami terlambat sedikit tetapi masih sempat camwhoring bersama rakan-rakan yg lain..Mama invited my grandparents too so a bit cuak dan malu la sebab tak excel sangat but what the heck, Ive graduated with a degree(hons) anyway hehehe despite everything that has happened kan..Proud of myself nonetheless although I know I could do better(so cliche) haha. Thanks to everyone who came for the graduation especially Zizi & Sha, Jiha, Teen, Yati, Min and the others(eventhough they were there only to support Leez sobsob) haha. Too bad my best buddies couldn't make it. Merajuk ngan korang. Had a graduation dinner at Serai Sec.3 with the family. Adik & Za weren't there sebab masing2 kat sekolah masing2 kan lame betul. Boo kanak2 sekolah. Adik, kau Medical SCHOOL so kira sekolah gak.

4. Road trip to Melaka bersama rakan-rakan sejawat



Setelah penat bekerja, kami mengambil keputusan untuk melarikan diri ke Melaka, bandar bersejarah. We planned to go to PD along the way too but Nina & Nadia had other plans so boo them!! Kat sana memang lawak gila betul. Dah lah nak tipu orang hotel cakap 2 orang je tido, papp di bagi nya bilik betul2 depan reception memang terbaik ah. Dah lah CCTV terpampang tepi corridor tu damn la. Last2 caught on camera jugak daa kene extra charge wakaka..When we had our dinner, hujan lebat gila so we were stranded at the restaurant for more than an hour. Last2 semua lari bergelimpangan balik hotel which was like 300 meters from the place. Dahla si Mel sakit kaki pulak tak boleh lari so semua tunggu dia and last2 semua decide mandi hujan je laa hahaha. But dang, it was soo cold! I was shivering like crazy! But the trip was awesome lah, I really needed a getaway at the time ;) And the asam pedas at the restaurant before balik tu terbaik!!

5. Karaoke yang never ending

Gang biasa yg slalu ajak hehehe //////Gang Lawsoc yg pergi mini reunion.

.............................................Birthday party si Amad yang sengal............................................

Xpernah2 pegi karaoke tiba2 tahun ni rajin gila pulak kan hahaha dahlah yg mengajak semua nya hantu menyanyi hehehe had loads of fun though. sorry la suara tak sedap kan,da kata karaoke kihkihkih..Paling best nyanyi Lady Marmalade with Nina(yes, just the two of us) Can you imagine? 2 orang nak bawak suara 4 orang? Memang semput ah! N yes, I did the rapping part wahaha hey at least I got a temukan gemuruh for that! hehe thanks lah Leez, Fyza n Sha yang lebih pentingkan makanan masa tuu...Ciss betul korang nih.

The mini reunion with Lawsoc lads pun not bad..We played bowling first before karaoke-ing tapi malas lah nak letak score sebab tak dapat top 3 so buat malu je kalau letak hahaha..Faida and the others semangat nak sign socks masing2 padahal lepas tu kata nak buang membazir je hahaha..Mine dah basuh bagi Umar pakai untuk next year wahahaha..And I still remember the guy yang jaga shoe counter tu. Kelakar siot! He had a funny face, I guess it was a birth defect la kot, if not his bad habit but he was always smiling yang semacam tu..EVERYTIME we asked for our shoe sizes. Serious! At first we thought nak mengorat si Faida, last2 die macam nak mengorat semua orang including Nabil (??) so takkan mengorat kot kan..Nawal, Mel & Leez dah gelak terbahak2 tak kaver..So if u guys wanna check this guy out, pergi la Bowling alley Mid Valley eh hehehe. Serious you'll feel appreciated and loved :D

6. Contests

All the contestants including the 'criminal' /// Thanks to this guy here! Adam!

Sherlock Holmes wannabe was the latest contest I entered. One sweet day, adam posted a link at fb chat asking me to check it out. All I had to do was snap a photo of myself, then post je kat the event page n get as many votes as I can to be in the top10. So saya pun tangkaplah gambo dan post lah dan 'paksa' kawan2 yang online 'like' hahaha sorry guys!!

I made it to the final along with 7 other contestants including Adam ni haa. During the final tu, ada Criminal Hunt. All we had to do was find 10 clues at different stores in the Cineleisure and matched them all and then find the Criminal at the said place. I, along with another contestant, Mei Yun( yes we are friends now ;)) cari the criminal at the Cathay Cineplax for about half an hour. Little did we know that an announcement has been made saying that the criminal has been found and that the game's over. Kitorang punya la cari macam orang gila kat atas tu. Fortunately, Adam's friends, Molong n his gf were there so I asked them and they informed us that it's over..Sigh..Memang dah agak dahhh!

Anyway, neither Adam nor I managed to score the grand prize. It was won by a guy who has won sooooo many contests/hunts before. Lucky guy. But hadiah saguhati dia pun not bad gak..4 passes to premiere screening of Sherlock Holmes, and other movie goodies..caps, notepad,files..Best jugak kan? hehehe

The screening was on 22nd Dec which was last Tuesday. I went there with my sister Nadzira gmok, my dear Izreen Marleezard and Siti Ribenna. We were late for ticket redemption, thank god the guy on the counter was nice hehe. Damansara jam lah, as usual..Gila betul.


Yayyness!!! Free movie!! //////////////// "Saya SUKA makan!" -Malik Noor

--------------------------------Ribenna & Marleezard----------------------------------

Adam came with Noi, Yayan, Alia, Ayumi and Azam. Due to the short period of time, I didn't manage to tegur them, sebab tak sempat...Rushing gila.

Anyways, thanks sooo sooo much to those who voted for my photo. You guys made it possible for me to watch the premiere hehehe. Your help is very much appreciated ;) Muahx!!

7. Family vacay to negara Soda Gembira!


Hellloooo Bandung! Jgn ganyang kami!! Rutin wajib iaitu makan.


Rutin #2: shopping sambil buat gila. /////////// Ole-ole wajib


Abah & Atok xshopping. Tpaksa tunggu je / Air wajib. Tgk minum sampai 2 botol


RM10. Kena tipu dgn org airport / Bersama Pak Jay. Pak Jajang takde :(

Basically, all we did was shop, shop, shop!!! Hahaha..Except for Atok & Abah. Depa tido kat hotel. Borriinnggg..So we went to Rumah Mode, pasar baru, Batik house, Kartika Sari & Amanda Brownies punya kedai besar, Cihampelas, other factory outlets...Nak cerita pun there's nothing much. Except at the Bandung airport masa nak balik. We were conned!! Macam ni alkisahnya...

Atok was lured into the airport lounge by a lady, she who must not be named, so we followed lah sebab atok kata "jom minum-minum dulu" So semua masuk lounge tu and everybody ordered drinks kan..Yang peliknya, takde prices pun anywhere. No price board, no menu. But we ordered anyway. Tengok-tengok bila kena bayar tu, diorang charge rm100+ only for the stupid drinks! Nearly 300 ribu rupiah la. Mama was so shocked but she had to pay anyway lah kan. Kesian dia, that money was our emergency money. Then he told Abah but what can he do kan, as usual die senyap je la. Walau bagaimanapun, anak2 Mama semua memainkan peranan..Bila dapat tau, semua cari that lady yang bancuh coffee tu dengan harapan dapat jeling habis-habisan..Benganglah kan, bukannya nak cakap! Malangnya mereka dapat melarikan diri...


One of the ladies(behind; yg depan tu my Uwan)..Ni laa yang berjaya menarik Atok. Ciss!

Anyway, all of us had fun. Banyak jugakla barang. Thank god my luggage did not exceed its limit of 15 kilos hehehe..I wish I could go on a vacay again before next semester starts. Hmm...Anyway, I think that's all for today. Will catch another rainbow next time! :D

I wish...

I wish to be one in a million. THE ONE.

The one that stands out in the crowd. :D

Does everything really happen for a reason??

Unfortunately for me, regret is the driving force behind my moving-on mission.

But oh well, it's a happy thought.


Credit to whoever did this :)

Budak gila

I got this e-mail from my mum (very rajin of you to forward this Ma) and I find it too hilarious to not to share with you guys! I don't know of it's true, but well, it's worth your time! Read it. You'll laugh till you die. At least, that's what this boy will say. DIE ALL!!!! Hahahaha

Karangan Terbaik UPSR 2007
Karangan budak darjah 4
Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi sebab air kolah jadi air batu dan air paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di dalam batang paip. Pagi itu saya bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk. Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya menemaninya ke pasar. Tetapi saya tidak mahu.

Selepas emak menikam perut saya berkali-kali dengan garfu barulah saya bersetuju untuk mengikutnya. Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer kerana pasar itu letaknya 128 kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer nak sampai pasar saya ternampak sebuah lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari arah belakang.

Dia melanggar emak saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam gaung. Dia menjerit "Adoi!". Lepas itu emak saya naik semula dan mengejar lori tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari di belakang emak saya kerana takut emak saya melanggar lori itu pula. Pemandu lori itu nampak kami mengejarnya. Dia pun memecut lebih laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan cahaya. Kami pula terpaksa mengejar dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan dua kali ganda kelajuan cahaya. Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu. Lori itu terbabas dan melanggar pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan sebuah feri. Feri itu terbelah dua.

Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100 orang semuanya mati. Pemandu feri itu sangat marah. Dia pun bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire pemandu lori. Pemandu lori menekan butang khas di dalam lori dia..lori itu bertukar menjadi robot Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara. Emak saya tidak puas hati. Dia pun terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di Genting
Highlands dan terus ke tempat kemalangan. Dia melanggar pemandu feri yang telah bertukar menjadi Ultraman itu.

Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya. Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam. Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia menyendengkan helikopternya dan mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu dengan kipas helikopter. Pemandu lori itu menjerit "Adoi..!" dan jatuh ke bumi. Emak say menghantar helikopter itu ke Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di dalam bahasa Inggeris.

Pemandu lori itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak saya cakap orang putih. Lalu pemandu lori itu mati. Tidak lama kemudian kereta polis pun sampai. Dia membuat lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang kemalangan ngeri itu. Semua anggota polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat lalu mati. Orang ramai mengerumuni tempat kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa yang telah terjadi. Polis yang bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai lalu dia menjerit menggunakan pembesar suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan semuanya mati.

Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai lagi yang akan mati. Di pasar, emak saya menceritakan kejadian itu kepada penjual daging. Penjual daging dan peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah kami pun mati. Itulah kemalangan yang paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat sebelum saya mati.

My reaction after reading this? What the hell is wrong with this kid?? LOL

Memang out of the box, inovatif, kritis dan kreatif and everything that's in the UiTM's visi dan misai oops, I mean misi... and hell, his imagination really did run wild!

Tapi last-last semua mati? Come on! You could do better than that kid! Write more! Hahahaha

Memang sengal. Kalau my brother si Umar write like this, I don't know what will happen to him. Mama malu, Abah tak mengaku anak. Me? "Haish..Another psycho in the family? Cukup-cukupla dengan me and si Adik je."


Morals of the story?
1. Do not speak English. Maksud saya, jangan cakap Bahasa Inggeris,nanti orang tak paham kalau kita maki hamun.
2. Pastikan ada air panas untuk persediaan mandi di pagi hari.
3. Pastikan anda melatih anak anda untuk menjadi seorang atlit jikalau tiada kenderaan, di samping mengajarnya Matematik(128 kilometer) dan Fizik(kelajuan cahaya), walhal Bahasa Melayu nya teruk.
4. Ban semua cerita kartun instead of horror movies (nak propose kat Puteri UMNO lah)
5. Kalau mak ajak pergi pasar, JANGAN ikut.
6. DILARANG menggunakan mikrofon.
7. JANGAN makan atau beli daging.
8. Kalau ada accident, jangan laporkan kepada polis. They might die.
9. Gunakan tas tangan untuk tujuan yang betul.
10. Akhir sekali, kalau dah buat salah, tak payah lah nak salam. NANTI TANGAN KENA KERAT!

Holiday mode!!

Now that I've finished my 3-hellish-months at work, I shall indulge myself into these activities:

1. Karaoke with my hell-buddies Nina & Sha



2. Go get the Graffi tee t-shirt that I won from Junk

3. Road trip to PD and Melaka with fellow kuli-kuli yang bekerja haha


4. Watch movies

5. Buy DVDs. I've missed soo many :(

6. Be a couch potato



7. Belajar memasak. According to Mama, kek batik tidak akan menjamin kebahagiaan rumahtangga kelak.

8. Trip to Bandung with the whole family!!! Shopping haven baby!!!


9. Jamming, jamming, jamming!



10. Cari kerja part time at any events yang can get rm50/day

11. Grab my guitar again after so long



12. Sambung baca Twilight Saga

13. Buy Muse's latest album, The Resistance!


14. Go to any gigs

15. Be healthy again! Go to gym, swim and jog


There's lots more that I can't think of right now..Oh well, at least all of these are on my list to-do :D

Stupid lousy job

Yayy today I got scolded by my boss for the first time!!! May I say, I was not the one to blame? Although I admit, I could be more alert.

But then, even if I did it without thinking, even if I did it with my own conscience, it could be worse.

Aah well..I was under pressure. Sanggup bawak kerja balik rumah tau tak? Still kena marah jugak.

She didn't scold me teruk maybe because she knows it was her fault for not telling me what exactly that I had to do and what she needed. Hello, I did what was supposedly YOUR job. Me. Moi. Sambil you goyang kaki check Facebook and YM with your scandals.

Kalau ada salah, padanlah muka. Sape suro kau tak check betul2.

But who cares. My friends and I are saving all the documents needed for LLB later. Conveyancing, litigation..All those formats and procedures. Why??

BECAUSE TOMORROW IS OUR LAST DAY!!!! Yippieeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! Freedom!!! Free from this hell, at last!!

Kepada para juniors yang baca blog ini, tak payah laa buang masa buat attachment kat firm ni. Trust me, you don't want to. It's full of hypocrites and two faced bitches (it is an all-female firm after all)

Anyways, thanks yaw for the memories. Although it's quite obvious that we learned things and stuffs all by ourselves most of the time. Thanks for making me realise that I deserve so much better. Too many workloads, too little money. I could do more, man! But thanks anyways, hell firm.

The most important thing that I've learned from this place is to treat people with RESPECT because that is what they're lacking. Be it your staffs, your clients or students. Setakat mengampu and mengutuk orang baik tak payah. If I were to be a lawyer someday, I WILL NEVER treat the people around me the way they treated me. KARMA BABE!!!!

P.S. When my friends say that Facebook boleh mendatangkan pergaduhan, I believe them now. Haha even though in this case, it was totally for another reason. Jom hantukkan kepala!

:(

Kawan saya dah berubah. I barely knew her anymore. Sedih ada, disappointed pun ada. Kenapa dia berubah pun saya tak tau. Tapi, saya tak suka.

Even so, I am not in the position to tell her about this. We barely talk nowadays. Not even text messaging. I just want to know why. Because, she used to be different. She used to be someone I know that would never do something like that.

Maybe, I don't know her that well? Maybe that's the real her? Was she influenced by someone,anyone? Is this what she want, all this while?

I feel like, I want to protect her; like always. I feel like I need to do something about it. But, it'll just ruin everything in a split second. I want to, but I just can't. Sigh.

Kepada si Awak, saya nak awak tahu bahawa saya sangat sayangkan awak. I just hope that you have your own solid reasons for all these. I love you, but I don't like your new appearance. Seriously, what happen to you? I miss the old you.

P/s. I'm sorry but I just need to be frank about this. Can't deny that I was a bit shocked and upset. I hate changes. :(

Taking back my love

Saya sudah cuba yang terbaik. Minta maaf sudah, cuba contact sudah, tapi semua to no use.

Sorry IS the hardest word. I've let down my guard, I've done almost everything.

Tapi, masih tiada reply. Hmm...Am I forgiven or not? Tuhan je tau.

Mintak maaf kat Ma and Abah macam lagi senang je. Cakap sorry sekarang, pastu buat lagi. Next Raya, minta maaf lagi. Ahahaha..

Bak kata orang, tak payah lah mengharap sangat. Do what you gotta do then pray for the best. I pray for forgiveness. Is it worth all this? Ntah lah. I guess..

Btw,hari ni asyik gelak macam siots jer. Thanks to Nina, Sha, Adik, Azreen and myself. (vain? think again!) I love meeting the cousins. They're all maniacs! LOL

Lagi satu, sekarang ni kepala asyik fikir pasal makanan je. Dah la tengah Raya, perut makin bulat macam Teletubby (Saya nak kaler yang paling best chopp! pastu nak plasma tv please, xmain la tv kecik-kecik sebab perut saya bunch! haha)

And guess what? Nina, Sha and I are such good actors at the office. Aren't we,fellas? Muahaha. bab pura-pura berlakon depan boss nombor satu :P

Pura-pura

I hate hypocrites.

They fake a lot.

But I cannot deny that sometimes, I fake things too.

Does that mean that I'm a hypocrite?



P/s. I hate those who kiss arse, too. Eeuuw, the smell..let alone the taste. LOL

Masa itu Emas

We talk more, doesn't mean we are close.

We talk less, doesn't mean we have lost contact.


Time is on our side, so use it wisely; because time flies by really fast.

Adakah??

Adakah hati Moo2 sudah terbuka semula setelah sekian lama?

Mungkinkah? Since when? Is this for real?

I myself am still not sure. Too early to tell.

But...jeng jeng jeng. Old feelings come rushing in. Uh-oh...

At least I can assure myself that I am normal after all for not having a crush on someone or something to look forward to for a verrryyy looooongg timeeee...Or at least, semi-normal.
Even so, saya dah ada matlamat hidup baru. Miahahaha!

Chasing shadows of rainbows? Hmmm...

It's funny how a simple smiley emoticon could cheer you up for the rest of the day. How a text message can turn your life around for a brief moment. Boost your energy unlike Gatorade. Light up your mood even when you're having your PMS. Put a smile on your face and keep on smiling like an idiot the whole way. Colours your black and white life.

It's even funnier when a simple act of gesture like a big fat hug, or a peck on the cheek could bring back old memories in a swoosh of time. The good, old memories..spent together without any regrets, doubts or hassles whatsoever. Laughters and jokes were the main course. Totally change your life by making everything bearable. Even when you're stressing yourself out.. You know you can get through it no matter what. You just need the right person to go to and everything will be okay after that.

But, it isn't funny anymore when you know that that feeling can be crushed in a matter of seconds. Tick,tock,tick,tock. The clock is ticking. The bomb is waiting to explode. Anytime soon. Adrenalin's pumping. Bungee-jumping or Solero Space Shot in Genting couldn't be worse than this!? Then silence. Everything just went kaput. And you can't recall what just happened. It happened so fast that it just proved the theory that time does not wait for anyone. Oh yeah. It's even faster than those F1 racing cars, that I'm sure of.

Then you just realised...That you're chasing rainbows that's not even there anymore. No sparkles. No rain. No sunshine. No beautiful colours in the sky to tell you that it's gonna be a great day. Those days were long gone. Now you're just chasing shadows of the past that you know you can't hold on to.

It's time to let go. Regardless of what they say. This paper heart here won't heal in a matter of seconds. It takes months or years to heal the wound/puncture/hole/defect. I don't care what you're gonna say. But I can tell you this. I'm slowly picking up the pieces and patiently putting them back together. Time will heal. No need for anti-depressants or sleeping pills. Na-ah.

Thanks for the memories. I'm sure we are made for great things in life. Or at least, I'm sure you are. Good luck in everything, especially your new hope and future. We are going to be fine. Totally. I still have faith in you. So no betrayals this time!

P/S. We're still friends, aren't we? ;P

Don't matter anymore?

It hurts when you don't matter to some people anymore like you used to,ain't it? Sigh..


"So bottle up old love, throw it out to sea. Watch it away as you cry. A year has passed. The seasons go." -My paper heart




P/S: Mama adopt another cat? Oh my..

3 weeks and counting (for the money LOL)

From left: Nina, Kak Zima, Kak Ain, Kak Yam! Missing: Kak Nisa, Lyiana n lawyers



Sha's first week!



"Hello!~ Dianna Noor and Partners.. :P



Lyiana! I miss you!!



Summons..Registered posts..Letters..Judgments = Slaves at work! LOL


My life since three weeks ago ;) Getting the hang of it.

Pictures courtesy of Nina Alyssa and Lyiana Ruslan.

There was a time when there seemed to be a happy ending

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

> Very significant.